Saturday, February 25, 2006

hi people

im actually enjoying alot of school now, but its the same way as i enjoyed life in RI. fooling around in class, doing all sorts of silly stuff boys do. somehow, the few of us treat the girls in our class as non-existent..haha. girls really complicate matters sometimes..

i guess after school its a different matter. instead of the soccer or gym i always looked forward to in RI, its either dance, training, council work, or school work. there's hardly time to take a breather, and a breather equates to buying a subway cookie, guzzling down a refreshing bowl of chengteng, or buying diluted horlicks. i guess i really want to do well academically, and not let my parents down..but i hope i dont burn out. its really quite stressful being a student in RJ..everyone's so ji hong smart. hahaha

dance is starting to become time-consuming. every week i have 6 practices, 2 for hiphjop, 2 for latin, 1 for movie medley and 1 for the opening item. then theres gym training on mon and wed nights, and occasionally, there's council stuff to do. wa piang..

anyway i made a promise to be christlike! but its so HARD..loving others is rreally really hard. my hot-tempered and impatient nature starts to surface during the teaching of hiphop...today i got ticked off by some complaints and i threw a hat onto the floor...duno what came over me :( must be all the stress.

anywya i had a talk about relationships. i think its realy important that you dont let your girlfriend or boyfriend become your life. firstly, if that happens, everything u do revolves around him/her, which is NOT GOOD. u probbaly like her / him more than she/him likes you. which is not a good thing because you become possessive and u want more time with him or her. then she gets stifled. there's never really a wrong or a right in a relatioonship because alot of it is so ambiguous. there are several couples whom i know are quarrel-free...there's so much built on trust and understanding that its really quite amazing. i guess the most importnat thing is to love your girlfriend/boyfriend in the agape way, that is, loving without expecting anything in return. thats almost an impossible task, but i guess if you can do that, u can safely say you've loved that person with all your heart...even if she breaks yours.

oh yes, and at this age? dont love if you can't let go. which creates a dilemma actually. if you love a person alot and u get attached to him/her, chances are the heartbreak will be really painful.and actually, im not sure if the good times are enough to cover up for the pain during the heartbreak. cos the better the times are, the more painful the heartbreak.

yet, if you dont like a person that much, why should u get attached?

relationships are too complicated. s jp.com.sg. come to think of it, there are adults i know who've been dating since JC. so should one keep fishing for fish in the sea? or should one just wait for a fish to leap out of the water into your arms?

trust God. thats something i have to do.

its over, finally.

matthew admired God's creations at 1:25 AM [comment]

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

talent time was such a blast! i think everyone put up a really good show..kudos to kwan rui, batch unite committee and the house comm ppl for making it such a hit! friendship week this year is really much better than last years :)

and moor tarbet won! yayyyy cos we had a lot of votes hhahaha. our item was good la. leslie and his noobcake pick up lines

"hey..wanna come over to my house and play some battleship? i can show you my destroyer!"

wa lao eh!

jerry's singing was good too! and si en and guiyi's dancing. andrea and aaron were just funny la. i'll put up the picture with my house's z'king and z'queen soon XD. yijing and narpal's item was really good also...both are really talented people! but unfortunately our house is richer so...:P the rest of the houses did really well also..all the zking and zqueen nominees are really sporting!

the open category was really fun. dehui put up a great breakdancing item..the bands were really good, and the singers like chenbo and kaiyang were really impressive. and i thought the dance by the class was damn cute.

there was movie under the stars after that..it was quite a good movie. 50 first dates. but it was kinda traumatising for me...bringing back happy memories. or should i say, sad.

nevertheless...i really enjoyed this friendship week! i feel quite loved after all carrying home a packet of goodies, with the main sponsor being my cool dance partner and co choreographer cattie! meow

hello jing4 yu2! how did u find my blog. yes, its jing4 yu2, not jing3yu4.

hi kayleigh..how come your og so happening. haha i didnt' see myself on tv! didn't record it..so paisseh

matthew admired God's creations at 12:01 AM [comment]

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Saturday, February 11, 2006

sigh. life's gonna become REALLY busy once dance pracs start kicking in. im in 3 items this year and that equates to 6 practices a week. its crazy, especially in a school where you're expected to score 4As and 2 S distinctions.

its been a longggggggggg few month for me. alot of tears, but there definitely were happy moments which distracted me..its quite remarkable how im still functioning now...i've actually thought of giving up everything before but i decided it was stupid.

i dont think many ppl read this anymore since i hardly update anymore. its cos im running away from the past..and i still can't face up to it.

i went for a christian CNY concert today, and there was the song 'do they see Jesus in me' or something like that. it really touched my heart...i need to sing that song more often..i haven't been living a christian life at all. i sucks.

oh something cool happened. dehui asked me to go help his crew perform at CHINABLACK. GGXX a club! so it was my first time inside and it was quite small. it was poly party...and i enjoyed the performance. ahaha...we left quickly after though..the place started getting smoky. yuks. and we got free entry and free coke. yay.

i hope dance night'll be a BLAST!!! 'thanks for all the tags they're very encouraging. haha ya i heard i was on tv during chingay. chingay was relaly quite an experience. only the actual performance is fun. the rehearslas are gross. hhaa juee...coz...I LIKE? i'm too popular to have 1 tagboard :) and thanks anon!

matthew admired God's creations at 11:32 PM [comment]

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